Loneliness
Loneliness
I can't even hear the wind blowing anymore. The sun doesn't feel as bright as it used to. How long has it been since I last heard her voice? The first word of the last sentence, "Godspeed". Then the last word "good luck". Then that was it. Of course she would never say, don't go. Stay here with me! What did I ever do? Why did she try to make it sound so hopeful? Did she really care after all?
Yes it's been almost a year since that, that goodbye. It felt like she was the last human in the world. Now I just feel like I'm the only human in the world. Everyone is gone. And she eagerly and hopefully sent me away. Now I don't feel the wind. I don't see a bright sun. Everything in my vision is dim and cold. I don't see flowers anymore. I don't sit on grass anymore. It's as if all the rivers of the world went dry. And life ran away from me at speeds faster than I can chase it back.
Why do I feel so alone? Why do I feel like everyone is out there? Like they can all see me but refuse to be here. As if they would touch me, but they are so far removed from me. I don't think anyone has been this far away, as left out, as I feel right now. Christmas is coming. I won't have a tree. There's no one here to give presents to. I should've got a dog. But something tells me it wouldn't come along. To be with me now. Oh God, I am so alone...
The only thing I have left is her last sentence. Every time I look up at the sky and dream at the stars I hear it. It's on infinite repeat in my mind, heart, and soul.
"Godspeed Artemis mission, and good luck!" ~ Memoirs of first astronaut on Mars.
(And you thought your Christmas was lonely LOL)
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uh huh misdirection... bittersweet stuff nonetheless 🥹😭
ReplyDeleteI asked the AI to read it. It said this and nailed it in one:
DeleteThe text expresses the profound feelings of loneliness and isolation experienced by the narrator. He laments the absence of a loved one and the subsequent dimming of his perception of the world. His memories center on a farewell and feelings of abandonment. He contrasts his isolation with the imagined connection others share, heightened by the approach of Christmas. Ultimately, the author reveals a twist, indicating the speaker is the first astronaut on Mars, giving context to his isolation.
That was profoundly obvious even to one with mere Real Intelligence ! 👍🤖😊
DeleteDon't be jealous honey I only put it there because I was playing with the program at the time and you and the computer are the only two that have said anything so once again as simple as it is nobody really cares about it and by the same coincidence the writer. This isn't even the only space I posted that too on the other spaces tumbleweeds are still blowing through that town LOL
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