Death in the heart

7/9/15

I just learned my Dad is gone... He died April 08, he passed he's gone. How do I feel? How do I morn? How do I carry on? Same as always I guess. Same as before this mess. He lived almost 100 years he got no fan fair. He got no cheer. He helped bring me up with Mom here and their. I thought I'd take this better, thought I was ready. You know we hadn't talked in forever. Thought I'd be steady. These months have been hard, I kid you not. I lost the one that could have helped me through this whole lot.
How do I feel? Numb
How do I morn? Alone.
How do I carry on? ...... I don't